Actually I gave this a lot of thought off and on over the past year. If no one is driving it, then there must be something equally fishy going on, because it sure seems I’m catching a glimpse of things before they happen. I called it premembering, or, more recently, forecasting.

I remember something else you said, twice: power. Not sure exactly what you meant, and I suppose it’s just an ordinary word, but today I have to wonder: is it possible that you can forecast forecasts?
http://www.thepowerpath.com/index.php?option=com_content&view=article&id=421:april-forecast-2012&catid=17:monthly-forecasts&Itemid=65

If so, you’ve clearly one-uped me and I’m truly impressed.

What are you going to do with this power? Did you know you had it? Maybe everyone has it, they just don’t know it yet.

Crazy.

After I sent you the link I was thinking about whether or not I bring about these crazy things somehow… and realized I’ve been looking at it all rather negatively when it really isn’t, it’s just something weird that I can’t explain. To which I should mutter “crazy” with a smile and instead of trying to hide it, go ahead and toss some more fuel on to the freaky fires. Maybe “manifesting mischief” is another way to put it.

You know, I dreamt of skiing down that ‘oh fuck!’ rollercoaster+hill you described, not long after I met you, such an awesomely symbolic dream I memorialized it in another blog post called “Ski the Wave”.

And if I haven’t said it enough… or even if I have – THANK YOU!! You’re amazing, Cyber Glitz was incredible, I’m so glad to have been a part of it, and looking forward to more!

I fall more in line with option 3 I think… at least most of the time. When I mumble “crazy” and shake my head, I’m usually doing so with a sense of appreciation and excitement, and if it feels like I’ve had something to do with creating the situation, a sense of pride.

I’m not one to shy away from difficult or tumultuous situations, for better or worse. I think it comes from a value I held when I was younger that said the more difficulty you go through the more prepared you’ll be later in life… which was at very least quite nieve, but it has lead me to learn and to experience a lot of… well, crazyness.

Adding crazyness to your life is a bit like risk taking. Sometimes it seems necessary to put yourself in a situation where the momentum will take you to new places you don’t know yet… like getting on a rollercoaster or throwing yourself down a hill, but the nature of this exercise dictates that you can’t know what’s going to happen. You can’t walk into the unknown, safely knowing what’s out there, and once the coaster car starts moving and your tied in by whatever elements and responsibilities and accountability you’ve put in place, the only word that seems appropriate is “crazy”… well that or “Oh Fuck!” Later, when you’ve come out the other side, you hope for another phrase… something like “thank you.”