Liz Baumann

Dream I had last night:

I was skiing, someplace I’d been snowboarding before. My sunglasses wanted to fall off and without them I couldn’t really read the signs, but then decided I didn’t want to bother with them anyway. I ended up somewhere familiar, but then I found out the run turned into a whole bunch of jumps. At first I was trying to back up and let others go ahead of me, thinking I would go walk back to another run. It was difficult backing up though and I decided instead to just give it a go. I went, and the first jump wasn’t too high, but then I landed and the surface was ripply. I did not fall though. There wasn’t a lot of snow but the plastic or whatever beneath the snow was fine to ski on. There were more jumps ahead and I had a choice to veer right for different kinds of jumps, ones I’d done before while snowboarding. I was heading there but then decided to go back left to where I hadn’t been before. The next jumps on the left were even bigger than the first one, the first of these was really tall. But I managed it. I wondered how, why wasn’t I falling?

Side note: I haven’t downhill skied in years, preferring snowboarding now, and I never did any jumps on skis. Last winter I snowboarded a dozen or so times and started teaching myself jumps. I haven’t been to the mountains yet this winter.

Four years ago I had a dream which I only vaguely remember now, but I wrote it down in a dream diary. The next entry in this diary is on 3/5/11, and I started keeping the diary in 1994. Yesterday I was looking up another more recent dream and stumbled on this one again. I thought about my experiences over the past year and it made me see this dream in a completely new light.

In January of this year (2011) I first started working with LEDs and other electronics. December 2010 was when I first got the idea to do this; before then it was nowhere present in my consciousness. I frequently have problems with my LEDs flickering and/or not working and it is extremely frustrating because I haven’t had much success in figuring out what is wrong; I replace lights and wires and they still won’t cooperate. I also broke someone else’s lights recently, and I want to remedy that.

Here is my dream from 9/27/07:

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“My lights don’t work!”
I woke up trying to say this loudly. My dream had ended with me turning on lights in my bedroom (different layout but with some lights like in the guest bedroom). The lights wouldn’t light up, and I felt it was due to the bulbs (obvious) yet at the same time, felt frustrated that I was always changing the bulbs, yet the lights were always burning out the bulbs quickly. When I tried to speak the words in the dream, my voice didn’t want to work either, which is why in life I spoke it loudly and forced.

Also in the dream, before turning on lights I was trying to hit the wall for some reason, and my impacts seemed unfocused and I could barely feel it and I figured the wall could barely feel it. And before that, I was with some others, it was kind of half first-person and half third person, but I was wanting to listen to some certain music (Heart, CCR?) and my partner/boyfriend/husband wanted to listen to something else, and there were others there too. This half-self sort of pissed off the others; another different first person of me saw this and wondered, possibly out loud, why I/she didn’t listen on headphones and take a break from the situation (and him too) and not only would we both get to listen to what we wanted but also would have the benefit of a break.

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Some notes I made at the time after thinking about this dream:
The earlier part (about the lights) I woke with the feeling of being numb, fading. Wonder if it has to do with (if dreams have meaning) my wanting to not be in people’s way, or just a feeling of fadedness or lack of interest or something. Yesterday I almost caused a head-on collision at a confusing intersection while driving.